Alep: aku tak penah buatkan kau card eh? Me: tau takpe! Alep: sori ah aku tak touching. tak main ah tulis tulis surat and kasi card ni seme. merepek sak. (he sounded so bitchy like fuck) Me: heh Alep: ehhhh dulu you yang suke kasi I suratkaaan??? Hahahahahahahahaha Me: (ni part aku dah binget) cibai! aku sincere tau! at least aku tunjok kau sikit aku nye soft side. tu pon kau tak nampak! ape aku tulis pon ade kau tak paham! bodoooooohhh
because back then i didn't have a blog. and i hate to say "I LOVE YOU" all the time. i just don't know how to show my affection to someone i adore. in a sense that i just can't bring myself to tell that someone on how important he is to me and how much i love him. i love pretending to be ignorant. because somehow, my ego is much bigger than the man's. and i'm aware that i am verbally vulgar and abusive. that's why i love to show how i'm feeling through songs, poems and in my own expression of words. it is an indirect way to say what i'm suppose to say, you know. but i always believe that the best way to express your feelings is to show what are you going to do about it. basically, its more than words.
but that's not the purpose of this entry. haha. so after the short conversation, alif brought me to woodlands for dinner. diyanah and danial tagged along too. my pre-birthday celebration was well spent. i got to delight in the nasi goreng ayam tempura which i've been craving for many months! and the nasi goreng ayam tempura was a special one cos the makcik gave me extra tempura chicken and mayonnaise. (mentang mentang birthday girl haha) oh the kerangs were orgasmic. mango shake was smashing. and the most important thing, my current favouritest song was being played at the table - with you. to sum it all, dinner was awe-so-mer-li-cious! :DD
14th march, night
right after dinner, we met gajah at his void deck. its been long since we last lepaking at that usual spot. we were there only for a short while cos i badly wanted to catch survivor at 11pm! haha. but then, that night was special because gajah has my favouritest jiwangest song in his phone - janji padamu (dah beribu zaman tau akak carik ni lagu!). i bluetooth the song immediately to my phone. on the way home, alif was telling me that this time, my present kena delay. that boy didn't know what to buy for me. eventhough i've been pestering him to buy for me an ipod-touch (haha!), i was fine with it cos i was just joking. and honestly, i didn't expect something special this year cos i was largely aware of the current situation and after all that had happened. the treat was marvelous enough for me already. :)
15th march, when the clock strike 12
my phone rang. it was alif. standard ah, the first thing that he got to do is to wish me. then he told me to open my door. i was plainly clueless. "asal aku kene bukak pintu sak?" then i thought maybe he was standing at my door, but that was just not possible. he called me using his home phone! i was thinking again. maybe budak budak bawah were there somewhere nak pekik happy birthday kat aku tak? i was panic already cos the parents were not asleep yet! hahahahaha. alif was getting impatient and shouted, "cepat lah bukak pintu!"
i went out of my room. step nak gi toilet. then my cibai sister dah tersengeh-sengeh and pointed at the door. my parents were already laughing and the mother was teasing me! urgh obviously they knew it. and i think i was blushing sak! haha. so i opened the door and saw a plastic bag lying in front of the gate. i grabbed it and dash back to my room. kental sak aku! hahahaha
SURPRIIIIIISSSEE! a black belt and a pair of black heels.
AND THERE'S A CARD!!!!!!! front view.
back view.
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY
Today is my first time doing for you a special card like this. Oh bie… it’s your birthday… oh my god… 20 this year… so old and getting married soon… hahaha… so sori… can’t celebrate with you on birthday… I’m working dear… but we got good Friday to spend with PUAKES… haha… so I hope with my own creativity on this card can make you feel touch… btw… you know my English are poor right! So sori… but you can always challenge with my mathematics… haha… so… I end with this…
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BIE!
i swear to god i couldn't control myself! it might look and sound ordinary, but his simplicity and sincerity had made it special to me. what more when my days were suck lately. what more when i've been pushing him aside. i was overwhelmed, totally. oh yes, i'm touched! :D
and here is my favouritest jiwangest song ever! lets go diy! wakaka
SURPRIIIIIISSSEE! a black belt and a pair of black heels. 
AND THERE'S A CARD!!!!!!! front view.
back view.