"put yourself in my position. kalau you dah ngan orang tu lagi lama, confirm you macam pentingkan dia dulu kan?"
it was like a tight slap on my face. to think again, when i was in your position, that was not what i did. i only thought that the one who've spent 5 years living his life with me, was my past. and the one who've only got closer to me, within a few months, is my present. i didnt even give a shit of how he felt at that point of time. to make matters worst, i was being super mean, bitchy and heartless. i cursed, i screamed, i laughed when he pleaded and cried all the time. when i knew that he was trying his best to get the fullest out of my attention and sympathy. but fuck, who the hell on earth would give a damn. he was the last one whom i wanted to care about. cos i fucking cared for my present.
for all that, i've been with him longer.
and yes. you have been my top priority. but you had just pointed out the mistake that i had made, for treating you as a king. what more, to treat him like a stray dog, everytime he wanted to come close. from referring to your 1 year series, it should be the other way round, right sir? i'm sorry. i did a mistake, just because he had been with me for a fucking hell of 5 years and i cared for you the most.
for all that, i've been with him longer.
well, i failed to see that i actually have to treasure the ones who have been with me longer than anyone else, be it an ex-boyfriend. maybe, this is the time to make it right. only i'm not regretting, cos that kind of feeling is hard to capture. oh boy, you had shed some light to my blurry path. but frankly, your statement is just so wrong. the one whom you regard as your top priority, is literally the one who is closest to your heart. to put it another way, sweetheart.
and for all that, you know i've been with him longer.
