the conversation that i had with that someone the day before, had given me a reason to think and reminisce. much to my dismay, i understood that i had gone through this phase. its deja vu, i suppose. honestly, i felt like the world has stop revolving, mankind have becoming heartless and i have becoming their victim. what's wrong with people and their decisions? i was always being told not to make decisions with an irrational mind. it would only harm you. and right now, i guess people have to start learning to make up their minds, including myself. people are weird sometimes. when they bid farewell, they would wish us well along with happiness. but when we appeared to be strong and resilient, they would get upset and think that we didnt even bother at all. that is untrue, definitely. in my opinion, this is one out of the many examples of unfairness, and this has not occured to me for the first time. i do believe that we must not be living in denial. life has to go on. agree? i can cry you a river, moan for you not to leave and wish that night was just a fearful nightmare, but no. life has to go on. i could choose to show you that i was caught up with those horrible emotions and text you that i needed you, but no. life has to go on. fronting might just do the justice all the time. like those saying, the ones who appear to be strong are always the ones who are weak. the ones who constantly help others are the ones who need help constantly.
so listen dear, i'm not blaming you here. i know we cannot run from our own mistakes, even as much as we wanted to, and what more to avoid from doing them. whats done cannot possibly be undone. i believe, things happen for a reason.
