sometimes, i do hate myself. i hate myself for being stubborn. i hate myself for being selfish. and i hate myself for being me. all that i care is to take care of my fragile heart, while actually i was breaking the heart of others. i know, i know it is unfair. but chances are, i'll let it remain as it is. i am just so afraid to let down my guard. i am just so afraid of the pain. and i am having a hard time handling with trust. trust is the fear factor that i have to overcome fast. well sometimes, i can't even understand myself. everything seems out of control. everything seems so wrong. and everything seems to be a lie. i know, i know something is not right. i guess it is just me, 'coz i refuse.
